Last semester, waking up was an impossible chore every day, but recently, I have found myself looking forward to the day ahead. There is no longer the lingering question of "How will I fail today?" but rather the imposing thought, "What must I do to succeed?" I've always been really bad about finding balance in my life. It swings haphazardly from the "Friends and family" category to the "School and My Future" category, leaving heaps of collateral damage in the form of angry ex-girlfriends, lost friends, lingering regrets, and red marks everywhere. I can't make "well, I have a balanced life" excuses anymore to justify my failures in either aspect of my life. Instead of trying to stack on one end, hoping for God's hand to reach down and balance my machine, I need to simply strap some C4 to the whole thing and start anew. Sometimes priorities can't be tacked on or rearranged; they must be rebuilt from the ground up. I am envious of those who know exactly what their path in life needs to be, as I am almost 20 and still trying to decide the type of person I want to wake up as each morning.
-Court
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